okay well, i was gonna get to work but I don't really feel like it... and i have the feeling that that chick that i yelled at yesterday for touching my ipod is talking shit about me to trish... oh well. i could care less. if they complain about not liking me then maybe they'll transfer me back to gonzalez. i'd like that a lot better. little kids are easier for me to deal with then these snotty kids. ugh i hate teenagers. i can barely deal with one, what makes people think i can handle like thirty?

whatever.

i need to find that tutoring form so that i can turn it into central office and maybe get some more hours in somewhere to save up a bit. i really want to move in with james... why am i talking like he can't read this when i just added him (you) to be my friend. lol.

i really want to move in with you. lol. that would be so awesome. we would get to see each other more often, when we're not working or at school. we'd sleep together at night. you can make me dinner. we can sit around and watch movies and have lots of sex and babies! lol. yeah... that'd be awesome.

^_^

i'm bored. i want to go home and go to sleep with bunny. idk why but the tv is on oprah... wtf? ugh they were showing dr. phil earlier. i hate that man. he's just wierd. i swear he's like a child-molester/pedafile in disguise. he runs a kiddie-porn ring in the basement of his home... real donnie darko! lol.

alright... i should finish my notes.... and try to read for philosophy so that i don't have to worry about it later.

cya!

So.... it's been ages since i've been in here and actually updated.

Let's see... James and I are doing amazingly. :) We just hit 6 months about two weeks ago and everything is great. I finally have someone to be with on Valentine's day... unlike last year when I spent the night by myself watching Lost like a loser. I'll still be doing that, except this time i'll be watching Lost like a loser WITH James! lol. I absolutely love him to pieces and couldn't have asked for anyone better to have come into my life.

We're looking into getting an apartment together. It's still a working progress considering we don't have anything saved up. But these things take time and it'll just be easier if we wait it out until we're truly ready for it.

I actually should be doing some homework right now, but here I am trying to ignore these kids. It's like having my sister and thirty of her friends around.... yeah that sucks. Oh well it's work. lol.

Alright, I need to get back to work for a bit.

i'm out. but i'll be back.

Cya.

I don't even remember what I last posted in here.... probably that I was coming home for a semester to pull myself together and bring my GPA back up... but there's been SO MUCH MORE than that since then! lol.

So... I have a boyfriend :) His name is James (and he's sitting right next to me playing with that blasted MySpace! lol) and he is just so fucking amazing! I don't know what i'd be doing while in this place without him by my side ^_^ This all clearly means that Jd is out of the picture. Well, he's still around, granted, but I'm not with him in any way/shape/form. Which is really awesome if I do say so myself.

I'm going to school at STC... I hate this school (of course I am using their lab computers to post this really late update entry). But still. lol. Taking College Algebra, Intro. to Philosophy, History II and Gov't I. Fun, huh? lol. Yeah sure.

I had a job at a convinient store... but I quit cuz it sucked. lol. So, now i'm working on applying at the library here at the school... and if that doesn't pan out, then i've still got a chance at applying to be a sub for the school district. Fun... yeah sure. lol.

Hmm... what else?

My sister is now a 7th grader... a cheerleader... still in CFA (Cheer Factor All-Stars... the private gym that she's been in for like 2 years). She's all kinds of crazy emo (yeah... an emo cheerleader... oxymoron, right!). But we've gotten pretty close since i've been around. Which is pretty cool.

I'm staying here until the fall instead of going back in the spring. I know... I can't stand this place, but I gotta do what i gotta do. But really, everything works out better that way.

Today is 2 months with James ::yay!:: ^_^ and it's been an awesome two months :)

hmm... anything else? I don't really know... but if I remember i'll be sure to add it in here.

Hello! to Holly Black :) Cherie Priest and Spainy! Cassie Claire.... City of Bones was GREAT! Caite, what's up. TxVoodoo... you still rock ;) lol. And hi to everyone else too :)

Alright... have to re-read for my Philosophy quiz.

Ta. ;)

Hmm... I've got a few pictures to share with ya'll... mostly just for the hell of it :) lol. Enjoy!


First of all... my room is in crazy disarray because i'm attempting to pack all of my crap up by Sunday... and Alex decided to try and do the same... thus... madness ensues! lol




that's the view from my desk...



Alex attempting to study amonst the mess...



Crap... crap... and more crap...



can you see the path we have to use to get around the room?



My empty closet... :(



the roomie studying in the mess...

Kay... so I bought a hat... I love it... I wear it pretty much everywhere... :)



And Tricia and I decided to go to SanAntonio yesterday... hoping to spend time with Jd and Rolie. We didn't get to see the boys... but we got to hang out at La Cantera :) And we tried on expensive dresses that I will never be able to afford... lol... well maybe one day...



I like the black one though...


And then random posing there at the mall .... :)





Alright... that's all from me... i'm gonna watch the Departed now... or maybe something else... not too sure yet... whatever. lol.

Cya'll

^_^

<b>1. You're allowed to use a love potion on one HP character, but it will only last a few hours.  Who do you choose? </b>

Hmm.... Sirius Black... Mmmm.... can you just think of the wonderful sex we'd have?! Oh wow... that'd be fucking AWESOME! 0:)

<b>2. Who is someone you started out liking more than you do now? </b>

I don't think I can choose a character... because i've had my ups and downs with a lot of them... and now, seeing as it's the end, I can't place one to say that I liked them at first but don't now... prolly 'cause i'm just thinking that everything can change with this last book.

<b>3. If Arthur Weasley came to visit you one day, whats the first Muggle object you'd show him?</b>

My laptop! Can you imagine the look on his face when he sees all that you can do on one of these things! :) I'd be awe, amazement, astonishment... all sorts of emotions rolled into one!! lol.

<b>4. If you were able to visit the Weasley house for a day, what's the first thing you'd like to see?</b>

The twins' room! I'd love to see what they've still got laying around there... lol. I'll end up with a black-eye or finding something that'll turn me into a tortouse! lol. How fun! ^_^

<b>5. At the end of Book 3, Dumbledore tells Harry that he may be glad someday that he saved Pettigrew's life.  Do you think Pettigrew will somehow return the favor in the final book?</b>

Pettigrew is a little traitor that only looks out for himself. If it does come down to him returning that favor to Harry, it'll be in order to save his own skin from something close to death. But, if it were just his own decision... he prolly wouldn't do it. Because he's a little coward like that. Fuck Pettigrew!

Well... havn't been in here for a few, what, weeks? Well, not with anything of real value or merit. ::shrugs:: Whatever. 

Some random stuff to update about. 

I don't even know where I left off... hmm... I think it may have been about puppies. So... there were 12... all are adorable. No browns except for one...he's a cutie. Two fluffies (including my runterz and the big fluffy momma lol). Some whites w/ black spots (like Lyra) and the rest are all black... except for Roddy who's a nice mix of black brown and beige! :) Gis and Buddy took Roddy... his name is Prince Roddy of Rottingham because he kinda looks like a rutweiler (sp?!). I'm still in love with the Runterz and am slowly trying to convince mom to let me keep her... she's so tiny! I've already got a name for her... Belladona Zaray. Yup yup. I was thinking momma can call her Bella... 'cause she always complains about not being able to pronounce the names I give to pets... lol. I wanted a name with "bell" in it 'cause Lea and I were saying she's so small (and might not get any bigger) so i'll end up putting a bell on her to hear where she is! ^_^

Lets see... what else... have kind of been talking to Jd off and on for the last couple of weeks. Actually spent most of this last weekend in SA but didn't even get to see him. It was 87 Weekend being hosted by Omega Delta Phi and KDChi... there was a party at this ghetto ass club: Club Rain... and I told Jd about it and invited him... but he didn't show. So, he texts me the next day apologizing, saying that he had to work. And then we kinda talked dirty all afternoon... lol. Wierd, I know. Then! Nens comes in, saying they're going back to SA to see Kandice (hers and Tricia's big)... so of course I go and tell Jd about it. We make plans to meet up with him and Rolie, but those get smashed as the Bigs (Celix was there too) complain about wanting to drink at some bar... so we don't get to see them. :( I felt bad. And Jd called me tonight... wanted to talk dirty some more... but Rox was in the room and I was giving her some time to get some headphones and music going... which only ended in me cockblocking myself and getting nothing except for Jd saying he had to go... now want to send him sexy pics of self to make up for it... and see if he calls back soon... lol. I'm dirty! lol. 

In some more dispairing news... I'm not doing so well with school. I havn't been to class in going on 4 weeks... or work. And that's 'cause I fucking LOVED my job... but the meds keep me up at night (thus me doing this now) and I can only really sleep during the day... so... i've made up my mind. I'm going to see if I can drop all of my classes with Ws and go home early. I mean, i'm not accomplishing anything right now. i'm not in a very good mental state... and I think i just need some time to think things through... figure things out... fix myself... and then i'll come back. i've really been thinking about it, and as much as i don't like being home for very long... it's the best thing for me to do. i told harry and he supports me. i told alex tonight and she supports me too. the only one who really knew was rox.... only 'cause she kinda dragged it out of me and i cried and told her what was wrong. pip, don't worry too much. and don't tell anyone, please. this is something i want to keep hush hush until i get it all squared away and settled. but i'll explain it to you if you want. just call me. love you! :-* 

but yeah... that's basically what's been up lately. it's been a hard decision for me to make... but i think it's really what i want to do. i just have to talk to my mom about it. because i know she KNOWS something is wrong... she always does. i just have to explain to her that i made a mistake and it wasn't my time to come back... i'll stay home for a semester... maybe a year, i'm not sure yet. and then transfer back. i just need time to figure myself out and let the meds settle right. because all of this is putting a lot of mental strain on me... and physical strain as well. i'm a fucking insomniac who can't sleep except for during the day... and i really hate it. 

anyways.... i'm gonna go smoke a cig and then come back and prolly read sorceror's stone... 'cause i want to get through all the books before dh comes out. 

cya'll

<b>1."Batshit" Bellatrix LeStrange</b> vs. <b>Narcissa "Not a Sissy" Malfoy</b>

Shit... Bellatrix, no competition. She seems like this crazy badass who could kick anyone's ass if you gave her a dirty look. Although Narcissa does seem to be a little testy, I still think Bellatrix could kick some serious ass.

<b>2. Remus "Moony" Lupin</b> vs. <b>Fenrir "Will Eat Your Children" Greyback </b>

Only because Fenrir sounds like he plays dirty... I'd say it'd be him. I love Moony to death... but I think Fenrir's a real piece of work. With one swift move he'd be able to tear a chunk out of your jugular!

<b>3. Gilderoy "Blonde Ambition" Lockhart</b> vs<b> Ludo "The Wasp" Bagman</b>

Ohhh tough one. Hmm... Lockhart just seems like too much of a pussy. I mean... he tried to stand up to a pair of second years! And he really didn't do a very good job. Because Bagman has a history in Quidditch he just seems to be one of those who can hold his own. I can totally picture him kicking some ass in a fight during a Quidditch match. lol.

<b>4. Severus "Don't Call me Snivellus" Snape</b> vs <b>"Seriously" Sirius Black </b>

Sirius, hands down! Although Snape has some nifty little tricks with a wand, Sirius could beat him down without a wand. Of course, Sirius used to be a bit of a bully, but that would definately come in handy when it comes to taking on Snape.

<b>5. Neville "Stubefy" Longbottom</b> vs <b>Peter "Pathetically Pitiful" Pettigrew</b>

Geez.... I love Neville... and Peter is a sniveling little twit... I think Neville's got more balls to take on Peter. He's a Gryffindor, after all. Heart of a lion, that one. lol. I think, if it came down to it, Neville would be able to hold his own, especially in a fight with Peter. Pettigrew would slink away and play dirty, but in the end, Neville would do some real damage. lol.

<b>1. If you could be directly related (son/brother/father etc.) to any one HP character, who would it be?</b>

Slughorn's daughter... can you even imagine how many people you'd know being the daughter of someone like that? Seriously! He knows so many freaking people... it's amazing! lol

<b>2. If you made a Horcrux what would it be?</b>

My horcrux would probably be... the necklace with all the charms from me and Jam's BFF days. lol. We're still really good friends... but I don't see or talk to her that much anymore... and that necklace means the world to me... i'd die if I lost it!

<b>3. What was the one twist you did not see coming?</b>

Snape being the Half-Blood Prince! I was totally falling into that whole "Lily is the HBP" thing... even though she's a girl... lol. But that whole ending was just a big WTF moment for me.

<b>4. What would be a cool place for the final battle to happen, other than Hogwarts?</b>

At Godric's Hollow! It'd be a nice circular kind of thing to it all... it kind of all started there with the deaths of Lily and James and Harry living... it'd only be kind of reasonable to have the final battle there too... :)

<b>5. What is your favorite chapter in the series?</b>

So... it's April. Where the hell has the semester gone?! I swear... it feels like yesterday that I had just gotten back from Christmas break... had stopped speaking to Jd since he went up to SanAntonio... lost my job at the library but gotten a new one at the CDC... got hard to work at school... and was extremely dedicated to everything that I knew I had to do. 

Now... it's April, and I've lost a lot of the drive that I had then. But i'm trying to keep up with it all. 

So far, things have been kind of interesting in every other prospect of life that doesn't deal with school. Jd has called me a couple of times since that time I saw him during Spring Break. He had been drinking ((thus the reason his ringer had been Call Me When You're Sober when I HAD his number)) and was "bored". Right. lol. Other than that night... i've been leaving him random messages on MySpace... really about nothing in particular. The last one telling him to chill out and not stress about stuff...'cause apparently he's having some trouble dealing with school that isn't STC. lol. I told this to Rox and Alex and I was like "Yeah... welcome to the real world, Jd." lol. 

Also, Harry and I have been keeping in touch a lot more lately. I think just because he's had so much on his plate lately that he needs some kind of escape from it all. I like being the person he can turn to for that. :) We set up the AIM talk thing again last night ((since his phone is broken and won't charge)) and I got to talk to him. lol. It was a funny conversation filled with "what did you say?... huh?.... i can't hear you!" lol. But it was fun all the same. Then... with little convincing... we took Blake and Artemis back to the Room of Requirement for some catching up. lol. Boy was that a lot of fun! ^_^ Man, I miss that place... I really wish we both had the time ((and late nights)) to get back in there on a regular basis. Of course... because of that room I had a very strange dream about Harry last night... but it was totally worth it. lol. And some reason Tricia was in my dream too... don't understand that part. ::shrugs:: 

Anywho, heading to the Spider House in Austin tonight with Tricia and Roxy ((hopefully, if all goes according to plan)). Am craving coffee like MAD! And want nothing more than a Black & White... mmmmmm..... so good..... ::drools:: lol. But yeah. Going home tomorrow for Easter weekend. A lot of family going back home too. Daddy called and said that we're doing our Easter thing Saturday 'cause Tio Lupe and Tia Cindy ((and me!)) have to go back on Sunday. So... that made me kinda happy to hear. Of course i'm going to have to leave it around 8 or 9-ish to get to McAllen. Not going home without seeing my Runterz and Danny & Lea! 

So... that seems to be the plan. But.... i'm gonna go try and write some more Blake stuff... try to write up the A/B flashback... type it out... and maybe wash before we head out to Austin. 

Cya'll!

So... clearly I wasn't the only one thrilled about this episode.... lol 

Oh, Damon, you clever CLEVER man... ^_^